yr so pretty there
I’m not much more
than a beer and a few words
to wake beside
yr look so pretty
there
sits by myself
I can perish
if I want to
body’s like
a flower
sitting
in a chair
this
isolation
to
emphasize
my beauty
once wanted to fuck Emily Dickinson
now want to fuck Mary Oliver
I write graffiti
on the walls
that are
invisible
tattoos
on a
harmed soul
discardment
of parental
nurturing
I’ve not
stopped
aching
for love
with
limited beer
I’ve put the wine
I’d bought to make
Bolognese with
in the fridge
‘that’s a nice breast, hon
what does the other look like?’
sometimes when the moon is out
I hold my hand out to it
I only do that at night
when nobody can see
I guess that’s like making love
so I get a chook feather
and break a blue pen
and dip the quill in
now I’m just like
Shakespeare
I can barely
speak
to people
now
the conductor
of grey
stillness
they see
the wilderness
in me
faith is
apathy
hope
survival
close the
doors
of the
maze
overdose
on solitude
people
stay away
from them
go to
a room
with music
drink beer
be free
of them
who could not
love me
who could not
offer no harm
beyond these
walls it is
nothing
fall among
my poetry
to morning
surrender